The Fear of Being Ugly (part seven)

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Continuing from my previous self-forgiveness statements, scripting out here my self-corrections and self-commitments to stop the patterns I live that do not support myself, nor anything or anyone else, and to change these to patterns of self-support that can be lived out daily, in every breath:

These self-commitments and self-corrections are derived from the self-forgiveness statements from Day 169- Dermatillomania: The Fear of Being Ugly, which I would highly suggest reading for context and for its own merit.

When and as I see that I am going into self-judgment based on how others are treating me, (either positive or negative- both being the same, as in two sides of the same coin- the point being that I am being influenced by my environment/others in any way whatsoever), I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to SELF-expression, by reminding myself that I can laugh at myself, and not take my self-image so seriously that I would be influenced by another’s reaction to it. I am ‘stuck’ with me no matter how others view me, react to me, or respond to me. I am responsible to make the determining calls for Who and How I am, and no one else is able to do that for me. I Take Myself Back from the direction of others by Grounding Myself within/as the Reality Of Myself, which I accept, with Full Knowing of the process I am walking and all that which I still need to do, which is a lot, and if I am called out on or made aware of a point I have not yet dealt with, then it is merely a point that requires attention, presenting itself into my awareness. I direct myself to express myself as ME, as Who I Am at the moment, for the moment, and in this, I get to know myself, and develop self-intimacy.

I commit myself to clear my starting point before, during, within and as interactions with others.

I commit myself to either stand up, or to humble myself without compromise, when and as I see that I am getting a positive or negative charge out of an interaction.

When and as I see that I am defining or judging myself as ‘ugly’, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-acceptance by reminding myself that the picture is not what is important- but is the result of what kind of care I am giving myself. I direct myself to look at myself in self-acceptance, wherein, when and as I look, nothing moves within me.

When and as I see that I am defining and judging myself as ‘pretty’, ‘sexy’, or ‘beautiful’, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-honesty within the realization that basing my self-acceptance on my picture presentation is equal and one to basing my self-acceptance within energetic relationships which have no substance or stability- which will thus then enslave me to the constant ups and downs of energy instead of the constancy, consistency, and stability that I am able to develop by basing my starting point on Who I Am as substance, and what my outflows are as physical actions and words. This I am able to decide in awareness and develop with intention.

I commit myself to clearing my self-relationship with my picture presentation to one where Who I Am and how I look are one and equal to that which I create in self-awareness, which is value, worth, self-care, self-honouring, self-acceptance, self-will, self-direction, assertiveness, steadfastness, and self-commitment to be and become equal to and one with all that is Here.

I commit myself to stop the reactions and judgments that come up within me as thoughts/ideas/feeling/emotions/perceptions/beliefs and internal conversation when and as I look at or see myself and my picture presentation.

The Fear of Being Ugly (part six)

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Continuing from my previous self-forgiveness statements, scripting out here my self-corrections and self-commitments to stop the patterns I live that do not support myself nor anything or anyone else. To change them to patterns of self-support that can be lived daily, in every breath, to support myself to let go of compulsive skin-picking.

These self-commitments and self-corrections are derived from the self-forgiveness statements from Day 169- Dermatillomania: The Fear of Being Ugly, which I would highly suggest reading for context and for its own merit.

When and as I see myself observing others and making comparisons of them to myself in my mind, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-acceptance by accepting everything about the appearance of others as simply ‘Who They Are’ and Where they are At within their own process, the same self-acceptance that I would now afford to myself, unconditionally, so that within my interactions I am coming from the starting point of actual communication; where each one is heard and each one listens, instead of two beings judging each other in their minds, creating secret competitions, causing each to feel better or feel worse after the interaction, instead of simply sharing a moment and then letting it go.

I commit myself to interact with others based on Who They Are, and Not how they look, getting to know who others are in their entirety,

I commit myself to Listen and Hear when interacting with others, instead of looking and thinking.

When and as I see that I am being or becoming influenced by my external environment, based on my reactions to/towards the looks, words or actions of others to/towards me, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to my own decision-making ability by deciding to, in the moment of reaction, let it go, and breathe. I direct myself to move on to the next task, and not carry with me any reactions I may have experienced. I direct myself to continuously let go of the previous moment, until I no longer experience the reaction in the first place, because I had proven so thoroughly how futile it in fact ever was.
I commit myself to clear myself of the reactions I create and manifest within me, moment to moment, making sure I am clear within each moment, not carrying over reactive energy from the last/past moment.
I commit myself to stop feeding the reactions I create based upon the actions and reactions of others. Each is in his/her own process, thus reacting to another is only creating unnecessary consequences for myself and for the other- but mostly for myself.

The Fear of Being Ugly (part 5, final)

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Continuing from my previous self-forgiveness statements, scripting out here my self-corrections and self-commitments to stop the patterns I live that do not support myself nor anything or anyone else, and change them to patterns of self-support that can be lived daily, in every breath:

These self-commitments and self-corrections are derived from the self-forgiveness statements from Day 169- Dermatillomania: The Fear of Being Ugly, which I would highly suggest reading for context and for its own merit.

When and as I see that I am striving to be beautiful, contorting and manipulating myself in order to obtain what I perceive as a higher standard of beauty, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-support by checking myself, if it is my posture, I take a moment to relax and find a position that is physically comfortable. If it is my clothes, I ensure that I am simply dressed appropriately, in clothes that are practical for the situation, comfortable, and physically supportive, if it is hair or face/body, I focus instead on breathing, and on Who I Am within what I’m doing, instead of ‘how I look’ within that which I am busy with. I remind myself to breathe into myself as substance, as I substantiate myself as Life Here.

I commit myself to remain vigilant about bringing myself back from thoughts about appearance and into actual actions, words, presence and awareness.

I commit myself to push myself as diligence, assertiveness and steadfastness, to replace feeding my energy body as my perceived perception of how I appear, with breathing myself back into my physical body, feeling myself in my body, as my body.

When and as I see that I am seeking to feel better about myself based on appearance/how I appear, or that I feel worse about myself based on appearance/how I appear, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-honesty by reminding myself that I am no greater and no less than exactly Who I Am at any given moment, and the Who that I Am is only ever the result of Who I have accepted and allowed myself to be, and Who I Am pushing myself to be and become.

I commit myself to take responsibility for my internal feeling/emotion body.

I commit myself to realize that so long as I attempt to manipulate and change my internal experience based on my external environment, that always mean my starting point is equall and one to that of being/feeling ‘less-than’ myself as self-honesty.

I commit myself to brutal self-honesty about exactly Who and How I am, and where I’m at, until I simply Am, Here.

The Fear of Being Ugly (part four)

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Continuing from my previous self-forgiveness statements, scripting out here my self-corrections and self-commitments to stop the patterns I live that do not support myself nor anything or anyone else, and change them to patterns of elf-support that can be lived daily, in every breath:

These self-commitments and self-corrections are derived from the self-forgiveness statements from Day 169- Dermatillomania: The Fear of Being Ugly, which I would highly suggest reading for context and for its own merit.
I commit myself to see, realize and understand that whenever I judge another I am merely judging my projected self, and within this I commit myself to see past and through the veil of my projected self-judgment, beyond which is an actual other human being with whom I can experience myself and explore my own self intimacy through getting to know myself with and as another.

I commit myself to stop the judgmental thoughts by instead focusing on breath, and learning and understanding others and who and how they are, what their influences were/are and to learn from them by integrating the qualities I admire and see are beneficial, and changing those qualities that I judge because that judgment indicates a starting point of self-interest and self-dishonesty.

When and as I see that I am comparing myself to another I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-equality by reminding myself that there is no possible way to fairly compare one human being to another, as each one has had their own experiences, their own challenges, supports, compromises and resources. Even identical twins from the same family can scarcely be compared as each has walked their own internal and external processes. I see, realize and understand that comparison is selective, it filters out the vast majority of the factors that contribute to the current present-moment reality, and thus comparison is not valid, as it does not consider the entirety of the situation at all, it is simply not possible. The only valid action is supporting self and supporting others to reach their own unique potential.

When and as I see that I am moved in any way because of the picture presentation of another, I stop, and I breathe. I take a step back and remind myself that beneath the flesh there is a skeletal structure, and each is identical in this way, thus my interactions with others should not be skin deep, and I see, realize and understand that in speaking to/interacting with the entirety of the person, I am also considering the equal and one functioning of the physical that composes the person, and no amount of judgment can change the fact that we are all simply matter, existing together in a way that is either beneficial or detrimental to existence, we individually and collectively decide, and to judge another by appearance is always detrimental and abusive to self and the other.

I commit myself to see beyond the surface when interacting with others, by considering the entirety of the physical and thus the equality of the physical.

When and as I see that I am seeking validation or approval from others based on appearance in an attempt to change my internal experience of myself, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-equality by reminding myself that this is exactly who I am right now, and any tries or attempts to change this are done in self-dishonesty. I focus on breath and on letting go of the desire to be more or experience myself as more or better than exactly what I am. I stop the drive to avoid exactly what I am, and move myself from Here, as exactly who and how I am, in self-acceptance.

I commit myself to breathe through the desire to be and have more than I am in one moment.

I commit myself to see, realize and understand that any attempt to be more and look better and seek approval and validation from others is an attempt to escape my actual real internal experience, thus perpetuating the cycle. I push myself to continue practicing simply stopping, releasing, and letting go.

The Fear of Being Ugly (part two)

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Continuing from my previous self-forgiveness statements, scripting out here my self-corrections and self-commitments to stop the patterns I live that do not support myself nor anything or anyone else:
When and as I see that I am inspecting myself so thoroughly that I perceive any ‘imperfection’ as a detriment to my value as a human being, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-acceptance within the realization that this type of perfection is unrealistic and unobtainable because the skin is constantly processing and removing toxins and blemishes are a result of the natural functioning of the skin’s processing, and to judge myself and my value upon this is simply the result of what I have programmed within myself of what value is, according to what I observed around me.

I commit myself to walk the process toward self-value based on what I create myself as Here as Life, creating value as Life as my input, thus creating value as Life as my output- wherein my output contribute toward a world that values Life over beauty, glamour, fashions and appearance.

When and as I see that I am being influenced in any way based on my appearance or the appearance of another, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-honesty by reminding myself that I simply cannot judge another unless I had lived their life, I cannot diminish life by judging it through my eyes that have been programmed from a young age through media, advertising, Hollywood, and other environmental influences; including other beings in my environment that had been influenced by the exact same forces, thus confirming to me a false reality that corporations and industries have spent immense resources on creating, while half the world starves.

I commit myself to breathe through my reactions, judgments, thoughts, ideas, perceptions an beliefs when I interact with others, and instead base my interaction from a starting point of equality and oneness, wherein I am equal to the other, and one with them- valuing them as myself.

I commit myself to stand by my principles, if I experience myself in the presence of another that does not value life, but rather diminishes it with ill intentions, to stand within myself by stopping my participation with such individuals until I am no longer influenced by such a character, and can instead stand unconditionally.

When and as I see that I am diminishing myself by thinking myself ugly, or exalting myself by thinking myself beautiful, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-equality within the understanding and realization that such an internal experience is nothing more than a program I created through outside influences since childhood, and that such programs have created massive abuse and inequality by accepting/allowing such externalized judgment to be any kind of indicator of value/worth.

I commit myself to submit myself to equality with/as those I perceive as ugly, and equality with/as those I perceive as beautiful, thus removing the competition in order that we may work together on the actual real problems in the world- common problems for a common people, so that we may experience for the first time, true individuality and true self-expression, instead of the kind we’re used to today, which is purchased from corporations and businesses and is actually nothing more than conformity in all regards.

When and as I feel unworthy within who I am because my picture presentation does not match the pictures in the magazines and on television and movies, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-love and self-equality by reminding myself that beauty has been sold to me as a product in exchange for my actual real value, and that the consumption of this illusion is my choice, and the illusion is not the beauty itself, but the perceived happiness/fulfillment/joy/bliss/importance the beings in the pictures present themselves as, which is obviously not true, and if it were, it would be so in the face of global atrocities and thus complete and utter self-interest with an absolute disregard for life. I realize that did not realize I had a choice, but rather instead trusted my internal energetic experience as separation, as ‘me’ and ‘them’, and longing to experience what ‘they’ experience, instead of ‘US’, working together towards actual solutions for this world- both internal and external.

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When and as I see that I am fearing being ugly, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-acceptance by reminding myself of the absolute self-limitation involved in basing myself on external appearance only.

I commit myself to create and enhance my worth through thought, word and deed.

When and as I see that I fear the way I will be treating due to my appearance, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-stability by reminding myself that the treatment I am receiving from others is the result of their own programming through their own life experience and societal, cultural, and familial influences, equal to and one with how I had been/become, thus realizing it has absolutely Nothing to do with me or who I am, and has entirely to do with mind-processes that disregard the value of Life.

I commit myself to value myself and others as Life, by stopping the conscious or subconscious judgments I have thus far accepted/allowed myself to exist as.

I commit myself to replace judgment with actual self-standing and actual support for myself and others, and to use my judgment only to determine that which is beneficial to Life and that which is not.