The Fear of Being Ugly (part seven)

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Continuing from my previous self-forgiveness statements, scripting out here my self-corrections and self-commitments to stop the patterns I live that do not support myself, nor anything or anyone else, and to change these to patterns of self-support that can be lived out daily, in every breath:

These self-commitments and self-corrections are derived from the self-forgiveness statements from Day 169- Dermatillomania: The Fear of Being Ugly, which I would highly suggest reading for context and for its own merit.

When and as I see that I am going into self-judgment based on how others are treating me, (either positive or negative- both being the same, as in two sides of the same coin- the point being that I am being influenced by my environment/others in any way whatsoever), I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to SELF-expression, by reminding myself that I can laugh at myself, and not take my self-image so seriously that I would be influenced by another’s reaction to it. I am ‘stuck’ with me no matter how others view me, react to me, or respond to me. I am responsible to make the determining calls for Who and How I am, and no one else is able to do that for me. I Take Myself Back from the direction of others by Grounding Myself within/as the Reality Of Myself, which I accept, with Full Knowing of the process I am walking and all that which I still need to do, which is a lot, and if I am called out on or made aware of a point I have not yet dealt with, then it is merely a point that requires attention, presenting itself into my awareness. I direct myself to express myself as ME, as Who I Am at the moment, for the moment, and in this, I get to know myself, and develop self-intimacy.

I commit myself to clear my starting point before, during, within and as interactions with others.

I commit myself to either stand up, or to humble myself without compromise, when and as I see that I am getting a positive or negative charge out of an interaction.

When and as I see that I am defining or judging myself as ‘ugly’, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-acceptance by reminding myself that the picture is not what is important- but is the result of what kind of care I am giving myself. I direct myself to look at myself in self-acceptance, wherein, when and as I look, nothing moves within me.

When and as I see that I am defining and judging myself as ‘pretty’, ‘sexy’, or ‘beautiful’, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-honesty within the realization that basing my self-acceptance on my picture presentation is equal and one to basing my self-acceptance within energetic relationships which have no substance or stability- which will thus then enslave me to the constant ups and downs of energy instead of the constancy, consistency, and stability that I am able to develop by basing my starting point on Who I Am as substance, and what my outflows are as physical actions and words. This I am able to decide in awareness and develop with intention.

I commit myself to clearing my self-relationship with my picture presentation to one where Who I Am and how I look are one and equal to that which I create in self-awareness, which is value, worth, self-care, self-honouring, self-acceptance, self-will, self-direction, assertiveness, steadfastness, and self-commitment to be and become equal to and one with all that is Here.

I commit myself to stop the reactions and judgments that come up within me as thoughts/ideas/feeling/emotions/perceptions/beliefs and internal conversation when and as I look at or see myself and my picture presentation.

The Fear of Being Ugly (part 5, final)

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Continuing from my previous self-forgiveness statements, scripting out here my self-corrections and self-commitments to stop the patterns I live that do not support myself nor anything or anyone else, and change them to patterns of self-support that can be lived daily, in every breath:

These self-commitments and self-corrections are derived from the self-forgiveness statements from Day 169- Dermatillomania: The Fear of Being Ugly, which I would highly suggest reading for context and for its own merit.

When and as I see that I am striving to be beautiful, contorting and manipulating myself in order to obtain what I perceive as a higher standard of beauty, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-support by checking myself, if it is my posture, I take a moment to relax and find a position that is physically comfortable. If it is my clothes, I ensure that I am simply dressed appropriately, in clothes that are practical for the situation, comfortable, and physically supportive, if it is hair or face/body, I focus instead on breathing, and on Who I Am within what I’m doing, instead of ‘how I look’ within that which I am busy with. I remind myself to breathe into myself as substance, as I substantiate myself as Life Here.

I commit myself to remain vigilant about bringing myself back from thoughts about appearance and into actual actions, words, presence and awareness.

I commit myself to push myself as diligence, assertiveness and steadfastness, to replace feeding my energy body as my perceived perception of how I appear, with breathing myself back into my physical body, feeling myself in my body, as my body.

When and as I see that I am seeking to feel better about myself based on appearance/how I appear, or that I feel worse about myself based on appearance/how I appear, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-honesty by reminding myself that I am no greater and no less than exactly Who I Am at any given moment, and the Who that I Am is only ever the result of Who I have accepted and allowed myself to be, and Who I Am pushing myself to be and become.

I commit myself to take responsibility for my internal feeling/emotion body.

I commit myself to realize that so long as I attempt to manipulate and change my internal experience based on my external environment, that always mean my starting point is equall and one to that of being/feeling ‘less-than’ myself as self-honesty.

I commit myself to brutal self-honesty about exactly Who and How I am, and where I’m at, until I simply Am, Here.

The Fear of Being Ugly (part four)

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Continuing from my previous self-forgiveness statements, scripting out here my self-corrections and self-commitments to stop the patterns I live that do not support myself nor anything or anyone else, and change them to patterns of elf-support that can be lived daily, in every breath:

These self-commitments and self-corrections are derived from the self-forgiveness statements from Day 169- Dermatillomania: The Fear of Being Ugly, which I would highly suggest reading for context and for its own merit.
I commit myself to see, realize and understand that whenever I judge another I am merely judging my projected self, and within this I commit myself to see past and through the veil of my projected self-judgment, beyond which is an actual other human being with whom I can experience myself and explore my own self intimacy through getting to know myself with and as another.

I commit myself to stop the judgmental thoughts by instead focusing on breath, and learning and understanding others and who and how they are, what their influences were/are and to learn from them by integrating the qualities I admire and see are beneficial, and changing those qualities that I judge because that judgment indicates a starting point of self-interest and self-dishonesty.

When and as I see that I am comparing myself to another I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-equality by reminding myself that there is no possible way to fairly compare one human being to another, as each one has had their own experiences, their own challenges, supports, compromises and resources. Even identical twins from the same family can scarcely be compared as each has walked their own internal and external processes. I see, realize and understand that comparison is selective, it filters out the vast majority of the factors that contribute to the current present-moment reality, and thus comparison is not valid, as it does not consider the entirety of the situation at all, it is simply not possible. The only valid action is supporting self and supporting others to reach their own unique potential.

When and as I see that I am moved in any way because of the picture presentation of another, I stop, and I breathe. I take a step back and remind myself that beneath the flesh there is a skeletal structure, and each is identical in this way, thus my interactions with others should not be skin deep, and I see, realize and understand that in speaking to/interacting with the entirety of the person, I am also considering the equal and one functioning of the physical that composes the person, and no amount of judgment can change the fact that we are all simply matter, existing together in a way that is either beneficial or detrimental to existence, we individually and collectively decide, and to judge another by appearance is always detrimental and abusive to self and the other.

I commit myself to see beyond the surface when interacting with others, by considering the entirety of the physical and thus the equality of the physical.

When and as I see that I am seeking validation or approval from others based on appearance in an attempt to change my internal experience of myself, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-equality by reminding myself that this is exactly who I am right now, and any tries or attempts to change this are done in self-dishonesty. I focus on breath and on letting go of the desire to be more or experience myself as more or better than exactly what I am. I stop the drive to avoid exactly what I am, and move myself from Here, as exactly who and how I am, in self-acceptance.

I commit myself to breathe through the desire to be and have more than I am in one moment.

I commit myself to see, realize and understand that any attempt to be more and look better and seek approval and validation from others is an attempt to escape my actual real internal experience, thus perpetuating the cycle. I push myself to continue practicing simply stopping, releasing, and letting go.