Here is a 360 degree view of my room, which I moved into about a year ago. It is within this room that I decided to really apply what I had learned in my last two blogs, and create for myself a sanctuary of sorts. A place to heal, to unwind, to fall apart and put myself back together, to nurture myself and to rest. I went through a process to make this my own space, a process of redefinition and creation, to accompany my process of self-creation.
Some things were gifts, like the chalk board above my computer where I write the living words I am working on, some I brought with me, and some I found close by.
Making a space my own is something I wish I had developed much earlier in my life, as I have moved many, many times throughout my life, often times feeling like I was living in someone else’s space.
Now, I thoroughly enjoy setting up my space in a way that best suites my needs, a place where I feel comfortable and cozy, where when I walk into it, it feel like I am walking into a warm embrace.
I aim to make my room my safe haven, full of comforts and support. At the same time, I am creating an internal safe haven, so that my internal and external spaces are a reflection of each other.
I must say, my dog Ghost has been a huge help in the creation of cozyness! Wherever he plunks down, he transforms that space into the most homey, welcoming and pleasant spots in my room! Additionally, his company, cuddles, protection and consistency have been huge internal support as well as I had decided to put aside my fears and walk unconditionally into a relationship with him.
Our personal space, as much as our internal space, is sacred. It is a place we can CREATE, using our capacity as CREATORS, and with our CREATIVE abilities, to support us in many ways and on many levels, to walk a process toward becoming our utmost potential, our best.
On the front lines of OCD: Bringing PEACE to the war at HOME – Creating my safe space, my sanctuary.
In the photo above, you can see how I have taken steps to create a home environment that is supportive in all ways: I have set myself up in front of the computer to write, which supports me in in my process of taking my authority back from OCD/derma. But because I know that being in front of the computer triggers the OCD, I have put a hair mask on to keep my hands away from my head. The hair mask also nurtures and moisturizes the scalp, which supports me physically as I have scalp psoriasis.
I lit a candle to create a more relaxed and soothing atmosphere to lower anxiety, and I also like the way it smells, so it is a point of simple enjoyment as well.
The same with the tea, which is filled with healthy ingredients such as ginger, turmeric, honey, lemon, and also chamomile which calms and relaxes. It keeps my hands busy when I get antsy, it tastes good and is warm and comforting.
This calming, soothing, healing and nurturing environment was created by me, in awareness. This is MY CHOICE. It depicts an act of creation rather than an environment of consequence, resulting from the automated behaviour of OCD. This is one step of my journey, bringing my writing to life in practical application.
10 things in my room that support me:
1) the turtle a friend gave me to remind me to slow down, accompanied by the tree her son gave me, “my tree” he says, which I must promise to protect.
2) the salt rock lamp I bought for myself for balance. The colour and presence of the rock to me look like a heart, reminding me of my heart as well as the delicate nature of the living body.
3) the painting that I chose. To me it is less about what the painting represents and more about the fact that I chose one I like instead of keeping the one that was there before.
4) the mosaic glass lamp I found in storage. The colours match the colours in the painting, and are colours I have been playing with lately: shades of champagne, golds, browns, ivory, rust and auburn.
5+6) essential oil diffuser, essential oils, homeopathic ‘rescue remedy’, and ‘cell food’ supplement from the pharmacy. I am exploring the effects of these products on my mind and body, seeing how I can support my body’s comfort, calm and release.
7) beeswax candles for that firey glow and to clean the air. Calming and soothing and they smell so damn good.
8) Butterflies above my medicine cabinet, reminding me of transformation, change and growth. My medicine cabinet is full of teas, supplements and creams I use to tend to myself as acts of self-care.
9) blue tooth speakers to play nice tunes while I work.
10) living-words chalk board. I take the words on one at a time to incorporate into my living. I take ‘problem’ words, or words I have not been living effectively, and turn them into ‘solution words’, where I redefine them in a way that supports my best.