The Fear of Being Ugly (part seven)


Continuing from my previous self-forgiveness statements, scripting out here my self-corrections and self-commitments to stop the patterns I live that do not support myself, nor anything or anyone else, and to change these to patterns of self-support that can be lived out daily, in every breath:

These self-commitments and self-corrections are derived from the self-forgiveness statements from Day 169- Dermatillomania: The Fear of Being Ugly, which I would highly suggest reading for context and for its own merit.

When and as I see that I am going into self-judgment based on how others are treating me, (either positive or negative- both being the same, as in two sides of the same coin- the point being that I am being influenced by my environment/others in any way whatsoever), I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to SELF-expression, by reminding myself that I can laugh at myself, and not take my self-image so seriously that I would be influenced by another’s reaction to it. I am ‘stuck’ with me no matter how others view me, react to me, or respond to me. I am responsible to make the determining calls for Who and How I am, and no one else is able to do that for me. I Take Myself Back from the direction of others by Grounding Myself within/as the Reality Of Myself, which I accept, with Full Knowing of the process I am walking and all that which I still need to do, which is a lot, and if I am called out on or made aware of a point I have not yet dealt with, then it is merely a point that requires attention, presenting itself into my awareness. I direct myself to express myself as ME, as Who I Am at the moment, for the moment, and in this, I get to know myself, and develop self-intimacy.

I commit myself to clear my starting point before, during, within and as interactions with others.

I commit myself to either stand up, or to humble myself without compromise, when and as I see that I am getting a positive or negative charge out of an interaction.

When and as I see that I am defining or judging myself as ‘ugly’, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-acceptance by reminding myself that the picture is not what is important- but is the result of what kind of care I am giving myself. I direct myself to look at myself in self-acceptance, wherein, when and as I look, nothing moves within me.

When and as I see that I am defining and judging myself as ‘pretty’, ‘sexy’, or ‘beautiful’, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to self-honesty within the realization that basing my self-acceptance on my picture presentation is equal and one to basing my self-acceptance within energetic relationships which have no substance or stability- which will thus then enslave me to the constant ups and downs of energy instead of the constancy, consistency, and stability that I am able to develop by basing my starting point on Who I Am as substance, and what my outflows are as physical actions and words. This I am able to decide in awareness and develop with intention.

I commit myself to clearing my self-relationship with my picture presentation to one where Who I Am and how I look are one and equal to that which I create in self-awareness, which is value, worth, self-care, self-honouring, self-acceptance, self-will, self-direction, assertiveness, steadfastness, and self-commitment to be and become equal to and one with all that is Here.

I commit myself to stop the reactions and judgments that come up within me as thoughts/ideas/feeling/emotions/perceptions/beliefs and internal conversation when and as I look at or see myself and my picture presentation.

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